Depression has stolen from me my energy, confidence, happiness, sense of wonder, motivation, interest in things that I love, and many other things.
I want to chip away at the stone walls holding my true self hostage.
I wanted to write down my aspirations, or goals for the future.
9 years ago I was a world traveler, readying for an archaeological dig in Israel. That was probably the best trip of my life. Before that, I went to Norway, Sweden, Denmark, Estonia, Germany, Russia, England, Nova Scotia, Greenland, Iceland, and the Netherlands with my grandmother. I loved traveling. I keep trying to convince my husband to travel with me one day.
I have always wanted to be a writer. My imagination runs totally wild, my dreams are full of fantastical realities. One day I want to write a fantasy book or series and get published.
3. Become a mom
My husband and I have wanted children since we have been together. We met over 8 years ago. I thought we would have a child by now. I suppose it’s a good thing it has not happened yet due to mental health and financial issues. I am almost 28 and he is 32. I just hope we can have a child before I turn 30.
4. Become a photographer
I love taking pictures. It would be so amazing to send pictures to National Geographic, or some other large publication.
5. Live on a farm, and open an animal shelter
I have dreamed since I was a child, of saving animals. I wish I could save every one that I find. I want to have open spaces for them to run around and warm beds for them to sleep.
6. Run my own business
I want to have my own successful business probably making jewelry, and other things, like I do now in my Etsy shop.
I want to have amazing and beautiful gardens one day. I want to have one for growing food, some for beauty, and also I hope one day I will hone my skills with bonsai and have many beautiful bonsai to decorate our home.
These goals are for long term. None of these are going to be fast to achieve.
I have some short term goals as well:
1. Keep my home cleaner (do dishes regularly)
2. Meditate daily
3. Exercise daily
4. Eat healthier
5. Go back to work ready to succeed at my job so that I can move on to another position.
6. Regain my energy
7. Maintain proper self care daily.
8. Get our finances stable.
9. Get the depression manageable so I can live a more normal life.
10. Continue to work with container plants indoors throughout the winter.